How Do I Measure My Success? | The Weigh

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Mercury Sable

How Do I Measure My Success?

I#8217;ve never been a numbers person. I#8217;m the type to stand back and look at the bigger picture. But sometimes in life I feel lost. I#8217;m crying as I type this, knowing that everything that I am feeling is completely normal and that many before me have experienced the same emotions I am.

It#8217;s coming to the end of Fall semester of my Junior year in college. This would have been my Senior year had I not went through a public meltdown around this time last year. In Sept.

2012 a series of event changed my life drastically, I probably should have been committed to a mental ward. I called it a spiritual awakening and a meltdown all in one. Without getting into too much detail, upset about where I was in my life at 24 and not actively doing anything about it, I threw my hands up and said #8220;screw everything!#8221;

In the course of 3 months I ruined a childhood friendship, totaled my car, and nearly lost the job that helped fund my schooling for the past 5 years. Yes, I was a reckless brat. But I needed it. I was always seen as the good child. the one making a way for herself, strong, independent, and smart.

I needed a moment in my life where I  could be the irresponsible one for a change. I#8217;ve always been reliable, loyal, and I believe subconsciously I hated the pressure of not being able to fail. I wanted to see who would be there to catch me when I fell.

And I found out very quickly it was my family, and new friends who had been through similar hard times and did not judge me for what I was going through. My awesome manager fought for me to keep my job and even after this year has passed and I realize how much I lost and gained in the course of ONE YEAR, it put things into perspective. You really can achieve anything you put your mind to if it means that much to you.

And if I do a side by side comparison of what I lost and gained, my gains greatly out weigh my losses.

My 2010 Chevy cobalt we had a good year together.

Goodbye old friend, we had a great childhood together but as adults we most grow apart.

School I left you for a year but I came back like I said would.

Mercury Sable you lasted me a good 6 months, you were a piece a junk and I knew it but you got me from point A-B for as long as you could.

Goodbye ex-boyfriend, no hard feelings but this on again off again relationship is just no good on my emotional health.

Mom and Dad even though living with you rent free was a blessing, at 25 I really want to be out here where the opportunities are.


I paid off the remainder of my car loan.

Completing my first half marathon in April!

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Saving up some money to not only return back to school in the Fall but to go on a fab vacation in San Diego (my first time on a plane)!

And by the grace of god, all praise be due to god, I managed to save enough money to get another car, this time a Toyota to get me to and from school.

And here I am with two weeks left in the semester. Yes god! I sometimes look back and think wow if I just would have hung in there and appreciated all that I had in my life at that time, I would have been a senior on her way towards her final semester. I wasn#8217;t ready, my mind wasn#8217;t where it needed to be.

The biggest lesson was GRATITUDE. You don#8217;t know what you  have until it#8217;s gone. And while I had every right to be frustrated, I should have gotten the help I needed before having a meltdown. One of the most rewarding things I have gained from my experience, was being able to help a friend get control of her life when she was dealing with a depression that was spiraling her out of control.

It#8217;s the reason why I have settled on wanting to be a health coach.

So in the end, when I look back on what I accomplished in a year when I had nowhere to go but up, I did a lot dammit! My life previous to that was filled with me riding around with friends smoking weed and hating my life. I learned the  importance of creating the life you want to live and letting go. I  let go with pure abandon. And to some it might sound crazy, but imagine not having any attachment to the physical world and material possessions.

I didn#8217;t cry when I totaled my car, I thanked god for my life because cars can be fixed or bought, a life can#8217;t. It took losing nearly everything I held dear to me in order for me to realize HOW to live.

If it#8217;s one thing I could say to anyone striving towards their goals without seeing a light at the end of the tunnel, it would be:

#8220;Live each day like you are at rock bottom and have no where and no choice but to go up#8221;

If you aren#8217;t where you want to be in your life don#8217;t fret too long. Have gratitude for what small accomplishments you have made, and start NOW planning and researching ways to get to the next step in your life. Small challenges are just that, small.

 The bigger picture is what really matters. Every plateau is a ledge waiting for you to set sail on your next stage of life.

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